Ashley

Tue, 23 May 2006 14:31:13 GMT

sooo i haven't updated in like 2 months. i think i'm gonna retire the old LJ. i dont ever have anything to say anymore and only 2 of my friends ever update. it's gay. so its been good while it lasted but i'm done.

time for an actual update?

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 16:31:49 GMT

so i guess it is about that time for a non survey update. lots has been happening lately. i suppose i will provide a brief rundown.

*so me and dave broke up. everyone that i tell is like awww i'm sorry. NO. no awww. i am so happy that i am not with him. you know? i guess i shouldn't even have gotten into that one because i didn't want a boyfriend to begin with. and this proves that. i like being single so much. so much in fact that i was a horrible girlfriend. my friends know this. but at the same time, i put so much effort into trying to see him and talk to him on the phone and he just kept brushing it off like he had no time, so when i would call him in the middle of the day to say hey, he would be high. great boyfriend huh?
if he had put more effort into it it could have worked. guess he didn't care that much. anyway, he called and was like, this won't work. and i was like, thank god you said that because if you didn't i would have eventually. he said he didn't want to hurt me. and i'm like, buddy don't flatter yourself, you haven't spent enough time with me for me to even get feelings for you so no sir, i am not hurt in the least. i mean i feel like i've been single this whole time so i'm glad i can actually hang out with other guys and have it be ok. which leads me to my next point...

*dave has this friend sean who myspace friended me a couple weeks ago. and he leaves comments on my wall and we send messages back and forth. and he was telling me i seem really cool and we should all hang out together one day. all as in me and dave and him. but i told him that me and dave never hang out so we probably wouldn't get to hang out. he was like, alright but that doesn't mean me and you can't hang out. hmm...ok. so i was like well you give me a call if you feel like hanging out. i gave him my number. thursday he called me at like 2 in the afternoon to see if i wanted to do something, but i was on my way out to work, and i told him i would call him when i was home. he ended up coming over at like 11 or 1130, and then we went out to walmart to get some ice cream, and then to the dorms to hang out with my friends. it was fun, we stayed at the dorms playing this board game until like 2ish. then we left...didn't know what to do then, he said he had to go home, i think he just wanted to leave the dorm. so we did, no problem. he asked me what i wanted to do, i didn't know...i suggested the beach. so we went there to the pier. walked like a mile up and down the beach. then we got back to the pier which was closed, we climbed over the fence and walked to the end of it. spit off the end, tried to see who could make a bigger splat sound in the water with it. ha. then we sat on the bench and talked for like an hour. we left. tried to go to mcdonalds because i was hungry but they were only serving breakfast at that point and i wanted dollar menu. it was that early. like 5 or something. he dropped me off at home and left. and the cool thing was that we hung out for like 6 hours and never ran out of things to talk about. i like that. i feel like i kind of connected with him. and we didn't do ANYTHING. no kissy no nothing. everything was platonic. which was nice. but he sent me a message the next day saying he had a lot of fun and wanted to hang out again. so i guess we'll see. i don't really see a whole lot wrong with this because me and dave didn't have a deep relationship. it was us talking about nothing on the phone everyday. thats what friends do. the first week was cool but after that he was just a hassle. so i don't think its that big of a deal that i hang out with his friend. i don't even know if anything will become of it. i guess we'll see.

*josh and i have been talking a lot. and now that it's spring break, we're probably gonna be hanging out a lot more. i mean i doubt we will date again. i mean i don't know. i don't really wanna date him because when i date him i expect things from him, as would anyone in a relationship and its better to be friends with him because then i don't care if he doesn't wanna hang out one night, he's allowed. but we still do have a lot of fun together. last night me and him and tiff and alan all went to your place on atlantic and hodges. there was a good band there and me and tiffy danced and alan and josh got to bond. it was cute. had a couple drinks, made friends with elvis the bartender who, go figure, was from texas, and tried to talk to me about it...lol...like basketball from there or something..i didn't know what to say, tiff had to cover me and be like, oh ashley doesn't like sports..ha. how bout, ashley really isn't from texas and has no idea what elvis is talking about. anyhow. since we went out early, we got back to the condo drunk and ready for more at midnight. we all went to the hot tub. its all kinda fuzzy. but i remember going to bed around like 330 or something. tiff and alan fought so they left without me realizing. ok this story is over. moral is, me and josh had fun. and i really hope he asks me to his formal because that would be lots of fun.

*so at my work there are lots of people that are hardcore exercisers and run marathons and do triathlons and stuff. and i was always like, wow those people are crazy. but this one guy came into swim the other day..he was like 45. and he was telling me how he was gonna compete in this triathlon in may in ponte vedra. i was like oh hey thats right where i live. and he went on to tell me that this particular race is a quarter mile swim, 11 mile bike and 3 mile run. which is totally doable for me if i practice. i think i'm gonna sign up and do it. i need a short term goal. right now all my goals are long term, like get a 3.0 at least for this semester, graduate college, etc. i need something to strive for that i can attain soon. so i don't feel like i'm totally wasting my life doing nothing. i'm gonna spend the next 2 months training for this triathlon. and i'm gonna compete and i'm gonna finish it. end of story. and when i do, no matter what place i come in, i'm gonna feel awesome that i could dedicate myself to something like that, especially something that i would usually doubt myself doing. so we'll see how that goes.

*so yeah its spring break and its so nice to have nothing to do. i'm almost glad i'm not going anywhere and getting wasted every day of the week with the rest of the spring breakers. i just need to relax. i've been getting so stressed out with school and work and everything and usually i don't have much time to just lay around. i have so much stuff that has needed to be done for weeks now and i can finally do it because i have time. i need a haircut, my car desperately needs to be cleaned inside and out, i want to put more pictures up on my walls, i need and want to go to JMoMA for my art class paper. i love having time for stuff. and you know, i get paid on saturday and so i am gonna go bargain hunting and buy myself some new threads because i deserve it. so there.

well i guess that about wraps up the update, i know its wrong but i am really craving a publix sub. its all i can think about and i am starving. and theres nothing in this house for me to eat. so alas, i am going to go to publix, spring an extra couple bucks for a foot long, eat a little bit, run and bike for an hour, then come back and inhale the rest. sounds like a plan to me. thank you for listening. : )

holla at britto for awesome things to do when i'm bored!

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 01:11:30 GMT

Can you name 22 people right off the top of your head? Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 22 people.

1. tiffy
2. bridget
3. nicole a
4. alan
5. dave
6. nicole b
7. tommy
8. josh
9. katie
10. katy
11. brandon
12. chris
13. murphy lee
14. dominic
15. alissa
16. jimmy
17. ashley f
18. courtney
19. britto
20. greg
21. angie
22. jass

THE QUESTIONS
How did you meet 14? at my first frat party freshman year

What would you do if you had never met 6? well KD certainly would be different!

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? they both love pot, they could get along lol i approve of katie for my lil bro!

Did you ever like 11? nah we're buddies

Would 4 and 12 make a good couple? nope, alan has a gf and chris is not gay

Describe 8 in one word: stupid

Do you think 13 is attractive? yeah he's alright

Tell me something humilating about 17? i don't want to embarrass her...i don't know anything to say that would even embarrass her

Do you know any of 4's family members? nope

What's 21's favorite color? i should know this...maybe green? or purple.

What would you do if 18 just confessed they liked you? i wouldn't be surprised.

What language does 20 speak? greggy speaks english!

Who is 9 going out with? she's single

What grade is 16 in? he's a sophomore at college

When's the last time you talked to 13? sunday...thats 4 days ago

What is 2's favorite band? i'm not sure..she listens to lots of stuff

Would you ever date 5? i am dating number 5. weird

Is 10 sexy? if i was a guy i'd do her

Would you ever date 1? nah i can't date my roommate. she's taken anyways!

Is 11 single? i'm pretty sure

Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 2? maybe if she were a boy, we're really good friends!

What school does 3 go to? fccj

Where does 15 live? new jersey..too far away from me!

Are number 7 & 8 Best friends? nope..7 and 5 are best friends!

Do you like 22? i LOVE jass!

i'm happy : )

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 02:03:52 GMT

ok so i haven't been writing in my live journal because i've felt i would have to censor what i write. but now that i don't think its a big deal anymore, i'm going to write whatever the hell i want. so yay! past couple days were really good. weird story...so thursday i had to work until 10, and the new guy justin who is 17 was working until 8 and then dave (19) came in to relieve him until 10. with me. and from what i knew about dave, i really didn't want to work with him. i thought he was full of crap and a liar and obnoxious. so he gets there and i'm like..ugh. justin please don't leave but of course he doesn't listen. so i go and sit in my seat and let dave act like a moron. so he comes over to talk to me and we talked for 2 hours straight. dave turns out to be a pretty decent person. a bit add but he's funny. so at some point he was like we should hang out and drink tomorrow night (friday) i was like yeah ok you are not gonna call me..so i went about my business and sure enough he did call and told me him and his friend tommy were coming over. so i got katie and courtney over too and it was a little shindig. it was really fun. very chill. katie left after a while..and then at like 2 or 3 we all passed out. me and dave worked at the same time on saturday morning so i just gave him a ride there. he said he wanted to hang out again that night so after work i took a nap and got up and got ready and him and tommy and tommy's little bro ricky all came at about 10 or so. went to broudy's came back and got started. alan and tiffy were here too so it was good times. there was a little bit of drama between everyone but it only lasted a little while, and then everyone was cool with each other. it was another long night. next day had to get up early because little brother who got drunk for the first time had to go to work..so whatever that was that. monday dave comes over with a movie and ice cream. how the hell cute??? tiff said she loves him now because that was the cutest thing she's ever seen. it was a nice thing to do. sooo dave is cool..and tuesday i had to work until 10pm and so he brought me a turkey sandwich and some popcorn and a gatorade for dinner because he knows i'm on a diet. HA. and all after that we just texted each other back and forth and it was just cute so since he lives near the Y i went to meet him after i got off. and he told me to come to this park in san marco next to the river. so we walked by the river and went in the park on the swings and we just got to talk a lot. it was nice. so after like a half hour or so his friends came to meet up with us. we ended up going to their place. it was a guy and his gf. they were pretty chill. either way we drank some and they smoked. dave is just as cool as chris about me not smoking. i like that. so we all chilled out and had some laughs. and then i felt kinda anxious so i went to leave. and dave walked me out to my car and we talked for a loooong time..it was warm outside. he's just so damn nice.

sooooo everyone who approves of new boy and the total cutness, leave me a comment!

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 05:58:02 GMT

so i had an eventful day. kind of. i find that my friends that live in the dorms, even if they don't consider me the same way, are my best friends here. i mean obviously i have others that i love to death. but i see these people so often and i could be having the shittiest of times (like tonight) and go there and just feel better. of course alcohol helps. but its still better here than to be alone. and i just thought i would say that. and i also give props to my homegirl bridget because without her i would die. she listens at anytime of day and gives honest opinions and she just makes me feel sooo much better about anything. anyway i guess i thought i would just update about that and to note that i know why ex boyfriends are called EX boyfriends. period. okay i'm done now. i'm gonna go have a burr. peace out boyscouts.

so this is the new year...

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 22:25:10 GMT

new years was good. went to oneonta with erin, nick and bridget. it was fun times. erin describes it pretty well in her entry about it so i don't feel the need to repeat. came back to jax last friday. it's good to be home. i just don't like coming home and having to listen to bitching about the bills..like its my responsibility. i think some people forget sometimes that i haven't been here for the past two months. its not fun to come home to "OMG will you tell him/her to pay the bills our electric is gonna get shut off tomorrow" great. it didn't get shut off the next day but it did today. i just woke up irritated today. to top it off i look like crap because i couldn't take a shower or straighten my hair, or make something substantial to eat. and it's not my fault.
whatever so tiff is leaving tonight to stay with alan. which is okay, she spent the last couple days hanging out with me. i just feel like i need a friend right now. it's not that i'm sad or anything, i just feel like i need someone to talk to. about kappa delta, about the confusing feelings i have about josh, and about my state of mind. i know it's hard for anyone to understand, and i'm sure most people don't care or want to understand. but i don't know who to tell about this stuff. i feel like talking to angie. she's always been there to sit and listen, and she's so compassionate that she makes me feel better about just about anything. and i'm not afraid to cry in front of her. wow tangent.
so saturday i went to hang out with the dorm crew. as soon as i get there i learn that they are getting ready to smoke. how convenient. but i was strong and i didn't do it. i'm pretty proud of myself. i didn't know if i'd be ready to go back into a situation like that but obviously i am. i'm having too much fun being off pot to start again. i like always having a clear head. although i admit, it could have been a nice way to pass the 3 hours i was home this morning without power. but i studied by the light through the window, so i suppose that was better use for my time. saturday night i went to hang out with joe, he said he had half a keg left from the night before. courtney came with me..i saw a couple of my buddies that i haven't seen in a while it was nice..like mike tucker and brandon and joe and chris and hunter (who isn't my buddy, he was just acting really sketch to me. i don't know if because of josh or because he's just weird.) but it was good to see some of them again. me and brandon had a slumber party that night. we watched cinderella and played 20 questions till late late.
classes have been going pretty good. this semester is going to be hard. i'm taking financial accounting, macroeconomics, social psychology, and art appreciation. i always wanted to take an art class so that when i go to europe in the future i can look at stuff and know what it is and what it's about. i'm sure it all won't be easy, but i'm single, and not partying as much so i'm sure i'll have time. am i making myself sound like a loser with this whole entry?? well i hope not. but it doesn't really matter what other people think i suppose.
anyhow, i'm in the library, think i'm gonna go get ready for class at 6. peace out boy scouts.

happy holidays everybody!!

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 16:18:34 GMT

i'm in such a good mood. this christmas was amazing. it started on wednesday..my dad took me down to the city for my present..a broadway play, since i had never been to one. we got there around 2:30 or so, checked into the hotel, walked around for a while..came back and got ready. we went to this new sushi place around the corner from our place (SO good) and then we walked to the show. he wanted it to be a surprise until we got there. so i see the sign for chitty chitty bang bang and i'm like...no FREAKING way because that would be way awesome. and it was! my first broadway experience was amazing. it was so funny. and they had some subtle dirty jokes stuck in there that the kids there wouldn't understand. it was such good times. perfect xmas present. so the day after, we went to the museum of modern art, since i hadn't been to an art museum since i was younger when i hated it. this time it was pretty cool. we stayed there for a couple hours and then we had to leave the city. since all the subways and stuff were on strike, there was mad traffic all over the streets. ridiculous. so we left and went to my grandparents' house 2 hours south. nothing really to report there...so freakin boring. always is. stayed overnight. next day my dad had to leave early but i stayed to wait for my mom and brother to get there. it was nice to do nothing cause i was so tired. but my grandpa just got annoying. he kept telling me lame stories and trying to be funny impersonating bob barker...yeah weird. i just wanted to watch some tv. is that so much to ask? anyway...after a long day with them my mom and bro finally arrived. made some cookies and hit the sheets. next day we left for my cousins house which is about another 2 hour ride back north. couldn't wait for the FUN times. so we got there, didn't do much for a while. but they are just entertaining and i hadn't seen them in forever. so we went out to dinner at this hillbilly type restaurant. with a bar and everything. sort of classy though. it was real good. bobby's girlfriend joined us. when we got back we all sat in the room with the tree and the 2 exchanged gifts. she got him a spiderman lunchbox. ok now, for all of you that don't know bob, he is the funniest person alive. him with that lunchbox....made everyone laugh till it hurt. i don't remember the last time i laughed as hard as i did that night. i love him. so after the girlfriend left me and lissa watched kronk's new groove and fell asleep...thennnnnn...christmas morning! we got up at 8:30..had to wait a few minutes for bob to get up out of his coma sleep. then we opened presents. i didn't get much..but they were good gifts the ones that i got. i got an ipod nano, a canon digital camera, a *good* hair straightener, a lot of money, and a couple things to make me look pretty : ) bob and liss got ipods too with the speaker things so we all spent the whole day playing with our ipods and our computers. ha. such dorks. but then later when my mom was sleeping we played this game called shout. i don't feel like explaining it but it was fun. so then we had mad good filet mignon for din din...and relaxed the rest of the night. fell asleep at 11:30 and woke up just a few minutes ago. we're prolly gonna leave here in a little while. i hope, i kinda wanna get back home. i don't like living out of a suitcase..so i'm gonna go talk to the fam for a while. holler at me if you wanna know when i'm coming back...i have dates ; )

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 21:03:37 GMT

Your Porn Star Name Is...

Rhonda Rimmer

What's Your Porn Star Name?

...if i was ever a porn star!

so not much has been going on...hung out with cheryl, chris, bridget and her friend liz on friday. got drunk for the first time in a month and a half. it was good times. we were supposed to hang out with martin after that. so we called him and it sounded like he was at his house waiting for us but when we got there it was just his 2 brothers and their friend. sooo...yeah kinda sketch. we stayed until they went to sleep. lol. that was that.
chris called me yesterday. we actually talked for a while which was cool. i haven't really talked to him since i came home but i remember how funny he is. i can't wait to get back and hang out with the dorm crew..like chris and bryan and jimmy and tiffany maybe. they were always fun times...ON THE COMPUTER!!! ha..
and i want to start hanging out with my old girls..like jass and angie and j reddi and my biggie and all them. we used to have fun. hopefully they still like me. i don't think it will be a problem...sisters fo life.
and tiffy roomie definitely got proposed to...i don't think i'm gonna comment on this one. i just wonder how thats gonna be when i get back. i don't want alan to be my 3rd roommate. i wanna live with angie : (
so i finally know what i want to do with my life. i don't really want to announce it on here because i don't think people will understand really. but i'm doing research on schools in california....

so i guess thats all...probably won't update again till after xmas..or maybe when i'm back in jax...we'll see but i hope everyone has an awesome christmas!!!

la la la

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 04:18:52 GMT

its a boring day in the neighborhood

full name: ashley susan prazych
nickname(s): asher, mom, roomie, pepa, polly

birthday: 11/26/85
where were you born: new jersey
zodiac sign: sagittarius
height: 5'5"
weight: not necessary to share
hair color: brown..kind of black..
eye color: brown or hazel
shoe size: 8.5
skin type : i'm a fair lass
siblings: lil bro greggy
tattoos: 3 stars
piercings: ears, tragus, belly button
hobbies: listening to music..going to the beach..drinking..normal college things

favorite
color: pink!
food: hmmm..seasoned fries!
pizza topping: cheeeeese
salad dressing: italian
sandwich: peanut butter
cereal: rice krispies treats
fruit: cantaloupe
vegetable: broccoli
movie: too many to name
magazine: self or shape
tv show: fresh prince!...or if i'm being mature, law and order:svu
website: i don't go online often
cartoon character: stewie
artist (painter): da vinci or van gogh

actor: ehh
actress: jennifer aniston
cd: right now, showoff (if you don't know who they are, DL them..they rock)
song: simple plan- you don't mean anything
music group: wow too many
music type: pop punk, emo

day of the week: friday, when i'm in jax, no work or school!
month: june
season: spring

holiday: christmas!
shampoo: dove
conditioner: dove
number: ?
store: i shop wherever has cute stuff
weather: 75 and sunny
restaurant: does angie's count?
channel: nick at nite
weekend activity: drinking

hangout: the condo
sport to watch: baseball

sport to play: i like to swim and i'm starting to like running, now that i'm getting better at it
animal: puppies!

flower: white roses
story from childhood: the giving tree
body part: on a guy? head?

have you ever
been on a train: yes, all the way across the country
been on a plane: sooo many
been in a car accident: yeah a couple
caused a car accident: yep
ran into a wall: not unless i'm drunk

smoked: must you ask?

been drunk: shyeah, i'm in college aren't i?

been high: must you ask?
broken the law: see above question
burned a cd (if yes, the one above is yes): yeah
kissed someone of the opposite sex: stupid question
kissed someone of the same sex: yes
made out: um....
been rejected by a crush: haven't we all?
loved: no more than puppy love
cried in public: once or twice
cried over a movie: nah i'm not mushy in the movies
fallen asleep in a movie theater: no
given someone a bath: hmmm...lol..

been to a boarding school: no
been home-schooled: no
lost a valuable item: yeah how bout my fucking wallet
skied: yeah and almost died...every time..
shopped at abercrombie & fitch: yes
skipped school: not in high school but in college yes
fallen from a tree: yeah, mr.schafer caught me!
broken a bone: no
passed out: i think so
made yourself pass out: no..

been to disney world: nope
been to a theme park (not disney): yeah
said i love you and meant it (not to a relative): no

past
what did you do yesterday: mostly nothing, went to the gym, got sushi, went to the library..
memory you miss the most: the entire summer 2005
memory you want to forget: i want to forget that i ever liked josh
something you regretted after it was done: no

the last
song you heard: frankie j-more than words
cd you bought: i don't purchase cds

thing you said: sassy wassy!! (i talked to her on the phone)
time you cried: don't remember
movie seen in a theater: derailed
thing you ate: frozen pizza
person who called: tiffy
nail polish shade worn: red
time you showered: yesterday
person who complimented you: my boss

at this moment
what are you listening to: nothing
what are you wearing: varsity hockey shirt, sweatpants
what are you thinking: what i'm gonna do after this

what are you scared of most: being alone for a lonnnnng time
how many people are on your buddy list: i dunno like 120 or something...i cleaned up.

future
occupation: not a clue
marriage site: not a clue
honeymoon: somewhere tropical and romantic
place to live: Cali
kids: don't know
car: somethin pimp
what are you doing| tomorrow: going to class and working and maybe going to see my family
do you think george bush will be reelected: um...obviously not

friends
best friend: bridget, nicole a, angie,

silliest: jass
loudest: tiffy
quietest: nicole

craziest: jass
calmest: Aaron
skinniest: nicole
best secret keeper: nicole
worst secret keeper: harsh..i'm not saying
the one you have but don't want: whaaat
smartest: all my friends are smart!
preppiest: i don't have preppy friends
peppiest: angie
most hyper: carol
hottest: guy? as much as i don't want to say it...josh.
weirdest: i don't have weird friends. they all rock
biggest pervert: me
most annyoing: eh...

do you believe in
heaven: yes
hell: no, God forgives
angels: i like to think they exist
devil: no
god: yes
buddha: don't care
soulmates: i like to think i have one out there somewhere
reincarnation: no
love at first sight: one word: erik
karma: yeah
love in general: no
luck: yes, mine is bad.
yourself: sometimes

crush
who and when was your first crush: mike laurent, 3rd grade
any now: yeah, dave. he's so hot.
a celebrity crush: i don't really have those
who do you want to be with right now: angie
whos number do you want: eh no ones i guess
who do you want to kiss: erik
what is something you dont understand about the opposite sex: boys are dumb, i want to know lots of things
if you could go on a date with anybody, who would it be: erik
on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you: 10, i'm so emo
first thing noticed about the opposite sex: hair
what do you look for personality-wise: sense of humor, down to earth, talkative, honest
biggest turn on: shaggy hair
biggest turn off: cockiness
something they wear that turns you on: mesh hat
something they wear that turns you off: timberlands
the most romantic thing you want to happen to you: that would take a while to think about
the most romantic thing that has happened to you: i havent had a lot of experience with romantic guys. but one guy put roses on my car seat when i got out of class. that was cute
what do you wear on a coffee date: a sweater and jeans
is it right to flirt if you're taken: yeah, just don't go to far
do you know what an aphrodisiac is: yes

one or the other
boxers/briefs: boxers..boxer briefs..SO HOT.
gold/silver: silver
vanilla/chocolate: Chocolate
flowers/candy: flowers...they don't make you fat.
book/magazine: magazine
tv/radio: tv. less annoying and redundant
glass half empty/half full: half full
democrat/republican: i'm not into politics
colored pencils/markers: markers!
coffee/tea: neither
sun/moon: sun
day/night: night
hot/cold: hot
dog/cat: dog
button/zipper: button...
cotton/feather pillow: feather..more fluffy
blue/purple: blue
long distance relationship/none: none..i like freedom
nsync/bsb: god. BSB fo sho
peanut butter/jelly: PB
waffles/pancakes: pancakes
letter/email: letter
florida/california: california
pizza/burgers: pizza
hat/visor: hat
iceskating/blading: blading
movie at home/in theater:at home.

are you
happy: yes
sad: sometimes
religious: not really.
bitchy: i can be
crazy: i can be
messy: depends, my room gets messy
mad: right this minute, yes
slacker: not anymore
nerd: no way
bookworm: no but i like to read
jock: nah
preppy: once in a while
selfish: nope
giving: yes!
obsessive: not usually
violent: not at all
calm: yeah
peaceful: yeah
mellow: yeah
eccentric: no
caring: yes, one of my worst qualities sometimes
untrustworthy: no, people should trust me
loyal: usually
patriotic: not really
perverted: i can be ; )
colorful: very
artistic: not at all

miscellanoues
what color is your jacket: black
do you shave: that would be gross if i didn't
where: you know where
what color is your razor: gray
what size is your bed: full
what color crayon would you be: pink!
feelings on abortion: depends on the circumstances
how long does it take you to shower: depends on if i have to shave or not
what does your screenname mean: TheEarlyNovember Ace (lead singer, so hot)8/11-the day i met him
thoughts on blonde pop stars in general: way awesome (ashlee!!!)
is cussing a necessity in life: in certain situations
how about coffee: i don't think so, but for some people it is
is the world screwed: i like to not think about it
what something you cant live without: love
what time did you fall asleep: last night? i haven't a clue...probably like 3ish
know what 69 means: as a sexual reference, yes
how about 143: never heard of that one
can you live without a microwave: probably
what do think about death: its inevitable
where and when do you want to be married: i want to be married in florida in like a bunch of years from now
why is the sky blue: cause the light reflects off the water to make it that way
what is a good trait about yourself: i'm nice
what do you always think about: your mom
how do you react to change: i'm scared at first but i adapt quickly
do you talk to yourself: not really
what is your opinion on love: it does not exist
can you afford to lose weight: always
what color would you dye your hair: i'm never dying it again!
best thing anyones told you: people tell me awesome things all the time
what is your reaction to someone telling you you're hot: damn straight
does being psycho appeal to you: umm no?
if you wrote a book, what would it be about: my life
what would you change your name to: i like my name just fine
longest crush lasted how long: 2 years? but...throughout that 2 years, i dated a bunch of people, but during non dating time i always liked him. make sense?

a look back on the year...

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 22:55:30 GMT

A look back at 2005...40 questions about 2005.

1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
most of it was!

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
i don't know if i could put a favorite moment...but it was probably sometime when i was with josh...i know, slap me...

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
when i realized that i had to come home

4) Where were you when 2005 began
with my family in new jersey, wishing i was with the CT boys

5) Who were you with?
my mom, brother, grandparents, cousins, aunt and uncle

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?
who knows..montreal maybe but still not sure

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
hopefully i'll be making out with a stranger lol

8) Did you keep your New Year's resolution of 2005?
i never made one, i think they're stupid, who keeps them anyway?

9) Do you have a New Year's resolution for 2006?
nope

10) Did you experience love in 2005?
puppy love, yes

11) If yes, with who?
i doubt any of you don't know...starts with j and ends with osh

12) If yes, do they know?
probably

13) Are you still experiencing this love?
no, no love but i still think about him once in a while

14) Do you regret anything from 2005?
no. i learned that everything happened for a reason, and even though i experienced a lot of pain, it will make me a better person in the long run. so i don't regret anything i did this year.

15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
yeah

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
yeah lots actually

17) Who are your favorite new people in your life?
NEW people? i have a lot of favorite people..i don't want to offend anyone if i leave anyone out though. bridget and nicole a are my BEST friends ever. i would seriously be no one if they weren't in my life. i love you girls to death! (AND my angie roomie...you are one of the most amazing people i have ever met. we will be friends and sisters forever : ))

18) What was your favorite month of 2005?
march..formals..boyfriend..spring break..it was amazing

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005?
nah

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005?
well, including my ride home to ny, 9

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
no thank god

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
yeah unfortunately

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005?
i can't remember all the movies i saw this year

24) What was your favorite song from 2005?
my musical stages are so random...i don't have a fav

25) What was your favorite record from 2005?
the straylight run one

26) How many concerts did you see in 2005?
its pitiful that i think i only saw 1...and that was last week lol

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
no, the one i went to sucked (no offense watson haha)

28) Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2005?
wow thats a dumb question...all i have to say is, "liver, i am so sorry"

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
pot is not a drug

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005?
wow thats kind of a personal thing to be telling all over livejournal

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Yes

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
i don't remember, i don't usually lie

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
maybe, i try to be nice to everybody

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
wow yeah

36) How much money did you spend in 2005?
probably at least 1 or 2 grand

37) What was your proudest moment of 2005?
ummm don't know

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
i do embarrassing things like every other day

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
i would change everything that happened on like the first day of august, i might still have a boy.

40) What are your plans for 2006?
to find myself, and to live in the moment-not in the past, not in the future.

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 19:45:19 GMT

so there's not a whole lot to update about right now.

..thanksgiving was good..well, our oven was broke so we had to go out to eat..it was really fun. it was just me and my mom and brother, and we went to longfellows. it was soooo good and we stuffed our faces. they brought a basket of bread, we inhaled it..they brought bruschetta for an appetizer...gone..we got salads before our entrees..gone..my brother ate a 16 oz prime rib, my mom ate most of a turkey dinner, and i ate half of my shellfish scampi. damn. we were hungry, our waiter was impressed. so there was a huge snowstorm that day and my tires are bald so we had an interesting ride, sliding all over the place. the only sad part about the day was that we couldn't make cookies because of our stupid stove. boo.

...so the day before that my brother had a hockey game that i went to. his games are so fun to watch now, now that everyone on his team knows how to play the game. it's a lot more fast paced than when he was younger. he scored a goal, it was awesome. and then i get back from the game, and i have a missed call from a 203 number..i couldn't think of who it was so i called it...it was definitely pablo..i was kind of confused. he answered the phone and was like, "hey sexy"..i was all..umm hey..what are you doing. he wanted to see how i was and then after i told him he said his phone was gonna die so he would call back later but he never did.. that was weird. i'm not really into the CT boys anymore..they got more sketchy than they used to be lol.

...so thanks everyone for the birthday messages, they were much appreciated! i miss my girls. angie roomie and nicole a and jass and lil jenn and tiffy and everybody. i'll be home soon no worries. last night me and watson were supposed to go down to albany with this kid eric and we did, but it took a lot longer than it should have...and we were supposed to come back to my house to hang out with jason and dan sibilia..didn't happen..it was a crazy night but at the end, watson came over and jason did too and we watched fresh prince for 2 hours. that show makes me laugh hysterically, especially last night. ha. thanks for hanging out with me guys. i had fun : )

...i think those are all the updates for now. i'm peacin out!

bored on a thursday afternoon...thanks erin

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 18:41:36 GMT

10 firsts:
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first boyfriend/girlfriend: cameron
first best friend: amanda
first piercings: ears
first crush: mike laurent
first music: beach boys
1st car: 1997 plymouth voyager..shaggin wagon baby!
first movie: cinderella?
first book: i have no idea...maybe the giving tree?
first tattoo: my 3 stars
first born?: umm on november 26th '85?
first school: dorothy nolan

9 lasts:
------------------------------------------------
last cigarette: on the ride home from the landing fl/ga weekend..actually i had like 8 cigarettes lol
last kiss: friday night
last movie seen: derailed
last phone call: to courtney like 20 minutes ago
last cd played: the new ashlee simpson!
last bubble bath: friday night
last time you cried: one of the first days i was home in ny..a couple weeks ago

8 have you evers:
------------------------------------------
have you ever dated one of your best friends: yes
have you ever skinny dipped: yes
have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: i don't think so..
have you ever fallen in love: i don't think so
have you ever lost someone you loved: knock on wood, no.
have you ever been depressed: yes..i'm a girl aren't i?
have you ever woken up and not known where you were: never been that wasted.

7 places you've been to:
----------------------------------------------------
1. san diego, ca
2. stamford, ct
3. like every major city in florida..gainesville, tampa, st. pete, miami, tallahassee, orlando..
4. tijuana, mexico
5. canada
6. chicago, il
7. nyc, ny

6 things you've done today:
-----------------------------------
1. watched full house
2. ate a sandwich
3. drove downtown
4. brushed my teeth
5. took a shower
6. i'm about to work out in a little while

5 favourite things in NO particular order:
-----------------------------------
1. cuddling/kissing
2. puppies (sassy!)
3. warm weather
4. my best friends
5. jeans

4 people you can tell [almost] anything to:
-------------------------------------
1. bridget
2. tiffy
3. jass
4. angie

3 wishes
-------------------------------
1. to graduate college
2. to be able to afford to live in NYC or cali when i get older
3. to be happy with everything in my life

2 things you want to do before you die:
--------------------------------------------------
1. have a meaningful, successful relationship
2. travel the world

1 thing you regret: i don't think i have any one regret. on the whole i regret trusting certain people

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 21:03:19 GMT

wee i just figured out how to make my fonts pretty...

thanks watson : )

ABC survey...i think this is a good one..

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 22:15:12 GMT

props to britto for this one...sorry girl, i know i steal all your crap lol.

[A is for age:]
well..i'm still 19. but i will be 20 in november!

[B is for booze of choice:]
beer-bud light, liquor-parrot bay or jager

[C is for career:]
i am currently unemployed.

[D is for your dog's name:]
SASSY!

[E is for essential items to bring to a party:]
phone and lip gloss

[F is for favorite song at the moment:]
blink 182-going away to college

[G is for favorite game:]
beer pong

[H is for hometown:]
saratoga springs, ny

[I is for instruments you play:]
i don't think i play any right now.

[J is for jam or jelly you like:]
not a huge fan of jelly

[K is for kids?]
none yet...hopefully none for a while...hunter ryan is NOT welcome right now!

[L is for last kiss?]
couple weeks ago...but hopefully my next will be tonight!

[M is for mom's job:]
she works in insurance

[N is for name of your crush:]
i don't really have one right now...but i guess winton is the closest thing i have to a crush at the moment.

[O is for overnight hospital stays:]
knock on wood never done it

[P is for phobias:]
needles, being alone, being restrained

[Q is for quotes you like:]
i like song lyrics better than quotes.
"be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~dr.suess
"when happiness is based on lies it's so hard, it's too hard to tell the truth." ~TSL
"you're as welcome as cancer but my door's always unlocked." ~MR

eh i can't think of anymore now.

[R is for relationship that lasted the longest]:
if you want to call it a relationship, with josh for 5 and a half months.

[S is for sexual preference:]
um, i like boys.

[T is for time you wake up:]
depends on what i have to do that day.

[U is for underwear:]
the thong thong thong thong thong

[V is for vegetable you love:]
Broccoli

[W is for worst habit:]
ummm i'm not really sure

[X is for x-rays you've had:]
only one

[Y is for yummy food you make:]
make? umm i make good pasta with texas toast!

[Z is for zodiac sign:]
sagittarius

the ransom

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 22:37:02 GMT

so this past week has been full of downs. no ups. besides for a couple hours yesterday. lost my purse, lost my life. kind of an interesting metaphor if you want to look at it that way. i hate relying on people for rides...i had to miss 3 days of work and miraculously i'm still employed at the ymca. damn! i'm looking for a new job now that i have my car back. 200 dollars later...anyways so our new furniture came yesterday too. and initiation was good. the most emotional one i've ever been to. so cute. usually i don't cry..like ever. some things can make me get a little misty though. like watching one of our new members get pinned by her mom. how freaking cute! anyways. so i think i might want to detach myself from fraternity parties. at this school anyway. i went to 2 different frat parties this weekend and i was real disappointed. i know it took a while to realize it but a good majority of the boys i meet/know are so freakin fake. i'm not gonna say names or anything but i don't think i need to. last night i don't know if it was cause of my "state of mind" or if everyone really didn't talk to me. fuck if i ever go to another sigma chi party. honestly, there weren't even too many hot guys there, even with my beer goggles on. what does that tell ya? but, the ones that are actually my real friends i'll hang out with outside of parties. at least if i don't go to parties i won't have to see josh anymore. he turned pretty mean. i remember when we first met and he was like the nicest guy i'd ever met and he stayed that way for a while..i guess fraternities do that. i wonder what kind of crap he's been told about me. whatever, it's not really worth it to worry about it. at least he didn't look good last night. so after i get my new id it's gonna be bars and beach/surfer parties from here on out. i was so much happier when tiff first moved in and got to be friends with her friends. we had some freakin funny times! ok anyway.

so aaron's moving out this week. saaadness. i'm gonna miss driving to work with him in the morning and singing and dancing..at 730..it was a good way to start the day. stop. hammertime. if anyone has that song on their ipod let me know. i thought it was pretty funny that he did.

so i'm gonna be here for thanksgiving. i'm not sure what i'm gonna do. i want turkey and stuffing. but i'll be going home for christmas for a long time. i can't wait for that. i think i'm one of those people that thrives on change. i get bored easily. i don't really want to be in jax that much anymore. i've made my friends, and my true friends, the ones that would miss me if i left, are few. but now that i've realized that frat guys aren't my real friends, i have to start over and make new friends elsewhere. and since lots of people in jax are tools, i want to move. like across the country. i don't even want the same job for more than 6 months.

i think i'm done with my ranting for now. i might do some more when i get back from chapter.

"tear me apart for pouring out my heart. i know it wouldn't phase you in the least. i hate you now."

yay britto i'm bored too!

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 18:42:19 GMT

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. ashley
2. mom (NOT what you're thinking..nicole calls me it.)
3. ash

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. being alone
2. being picked up off the ground
3. failure

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. cell phone
2. toothbrush
3. rainbows

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. underwear..its pink
2. lifeguard shirt
3. tank top

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. honesty
2. affection
3. trust ....well theres 3 things that weren't in my last relationship...

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. I AM GOING
2. TO BOYCOTT
3. THIS QUESTION

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. shaggy hair
2. perfect smile
3. toned body

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. concentrate
2. funnel a beer
3. not procrastinate

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. well...
2. reading
3. going to the beach

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Shower
2. make out
3. eat

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. italy
2. Hawaii
3. the caribbean

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. find my soulmate
2. travel around the world
3. i don't know..

Last person who....

1. Slept in your bed: me and sassy and tiffy!
2. Saw you cry : tiffy
3. Made you cry: the police man
4. You went to the movies with: mike
5. You went to the mall with: umm..nicole a?

Have You Ever...

1. Said "I Love You" and meant it: to my family
2. Got in a fight with your pet: yes, happens every time sassy poops on my closet floor
3. Been to California: yeah it was awesome
4. Been to Mexico: yeah...tijuana
5. Been to China: no i wish
6. Been to Canada: yeah a couple times..i used to live near it
7. Been to Europe: no sadly...perhaps in the future

Random

1. Do you have a crush on someone? not really...theres guys i think are cute but no crushes
2. What book are you reading now? the lonely londoners
3. Worst feeling in the world? not being loved
4. Future KIDS names: psh i don't know
5. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? yeah i have my shamu and the bear jenn got for me a while back
6. What's under your bed? my toolbox!
7. Favorite sport to watch: baseball
8. Location: my apartment
9. Do you drink? too much
10. Where do you want to get married? somewhere pretty
11. Who do you really hate? this one girl..no names..and my dad sometimes
12. Do you have a job? yeah..its not fun though
13. Do you like being around people: oh yes, i hate being alone
14. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: awww yeah those were the days of high school
15. Have you ever cried? thats a lame question
16. Are you lonely right now? not at the moment but i have my lonely bouts..lately i've been too busy to be lonely
17. Song that's stuck in your head a lot: depends on what i listen to that day

Have You Ever....

1. Been in love: no
2. Played strip poker: yeah..aw i remember the first time i played...that was the best night of freshman year
3. Gotten beaten up: no
4. Done an all-nighter: yeah it was horrible
5. Been on radio/TV: no
6. Been in a mosh-pit: haha yeah!
7. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends: yeah, not too many though
8. Skinny dipped: yeah

In the last 48 Hours have you...

1. Cried: no
2. Bought something: just food
3. Gotten sick: nope! i'm healthy!
4. Sang: yeah on my way home from work
5. Been kissed: i don't think so
6. Had sex: no
7. Felt stupid: probably
8. Talked to an ex: nope i don't think we talk at all anymore
9. Wanted to see someone: omg yes
10. Hugged someone: yeaaaaah

i followed the crowd.

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 17:55:36 GMT

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.

1.~How did you meet stellarstargurl? i think we had class together in high school
2.~What would you do if you had never met emsterkd? i would never have a date for panera!
3.~What do you honestly think of 22atticus22? honestly, she's my little and i love her no matter how much she hates me right now.
4.~Would or did stellarstargurl and superradgirl go out? not unless they were lesbians...they've never met
5.~Have you ever liked gnar_dreads? not more than friends
6.~If crazyhair0821 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? that is a horrible question...i would need him to know...that...i don't dislike him and if i ever hurt him before that i'm sorry.
7.~Would starryadsnyc and iam_bryan make a good couple? i don't think so..they aren't each others type
8.~Describe lillian_10 in 3 words: you are married : )
9.~Do you think skiesbleedstars is hot? yeah, if i was a guy i'd do her
10.~Would crazyhair0821 and angiepangie03 make a lovely couple? nah i don't think so..they're complete opposites
11.~What do you think of when you see superradgirl? kappa delta
12.~Tell me something humiliating about iam_bryan: hmmm..i don't know that i know anything embarrassing about him
13.~Do you know any of roxybabe49's family members? yes, her brother is a sigma chi
14.~What's stellarstargurl's favorite color? hot pink
15.~On a scale of 1-10 how cute is pinkstarprinces? 11!! : )
16.~What would you do if ashley528 just professed their undying love for you? laugh in her face
17.~What language does stellarstargurl speak? english?
18.~Who is cinematictwist going out with? last i knew she was going out with this guy from CT
19.~Is stellarstargurl a boy or a girl? girl
20.~Would stellarstargurl and ashley528 make a good couple? well, i think they're best friends, so probably
21.~Who do you think stellarstargurl would be great with from this list? crazyhair0821
22.~When was the last time you talked to skiesbleedstars? a few minutes ago
23.~What is gnar_dreads's favorite band? i'm not sure
24.~Does starryadsnyc have any siblings? yes, a couple stepbrothers
25.~Would you ever date roxybabe49? maybe if i was a boy
26.~Would you ever date lillian_10? maybe if i was a boy
27.~Is stellarstargurl single? i'm not sure, i think so
28.~What is stellarstargurl's last name? yakush
29.~What is stellarstargurl's middle name? don't know..prolly marie or something
30~What is 22atticus22's fantasy? she hasn't shared that with me
31.~Where does stellarstargurl live? greenfield..the boonies..or oneonta
32.~Would you make out with stellarstargurl? sure
33.~Are emsterkd and roxybabe49 best friends? i don't even think they've met
34.~Does lillian_10 like stellarstargurl? they've never met
35.~How did you meet stellarstargurl? what a ripoff, this question is the same as #1
36.~Is skiesbleedstars older than you? yeah, everybody is older than me
37.~Is angiepangie03 the sexiest person alive? OMG yes. she's my roomie!!

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 18:36:16 GMT

so i don't really have a ton of time to write, but i feel like wasting time in the library, since i still don't have internet at my apartment. it's coming today though! with the cable! yay! me and tiff have to ask people what's happening in the world. it's gotten pathetic really.

this weekend was pretty fun. we had a couple people over every night and sunday night was our big night. which wasn't even huge at all...there was only about 25 or 30 people there. our apartment didn't get destroyed...we just had to spend half the day on monday cleaning..after a semi awkward breakfast at village inn with the little "crew" from that night. all in all i had a blast. i've met sooo many new people in this past week and they are just awesome. living with tiffany has already started to make me a better person. i feel more confident and outgoing when i'm with her and we always just have so much fun. good times in our condo with sassy!

i went back to work for the first time in 2 weeks today. the pool is actually closed for maintenance work..which i thought would be a good thing..but it's not really cause now i have to do hard labor instead of sit on my butt for 3 hours and watch the pool. i had to pressure wash the whole inside of the pool this morning. it took me like 2 and a half hours including the break i gave myself. shyeah. it's weird though standing in the empty pool. yeah...so i have hours for the rest of the week doing stuff like that.

for all those who are wondering...i still haven't talked to erik in a while..he isn't on the schedule at the Y anymore so i can't visit. and me and tiff left the gayest message on his brother's answering machine...and he never returned the message..ha..i'm not gonna let him get away. oh no!

so i just walked by all the frat tables outside. i hate this week cause i feel like i have to look cute all the time to walk by those tables. but now i don't really care. i don't really stop to talk to anyone, especially since they changed locations. i almost feel antisocial. but with the way certain fraternities have been acting lately, i don't really feel too bad.

well i guess i don't have much else to say. i should probably go and read for my night class, since i have to go home to greet the cable guy, when i won't be able to read.

peace out boyscouts.

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 18:00:38 GMT

i'm back in the library, praying that my car doesn't get ticketed for being in an illegal space. it was rediculous this morning at like 11:30. so i don't care. at least i'm in an actual space. class was kinda boring today. i'm just tired and lazy.
tiffany moved in the other day!! it's been so much fun so far. i'm so glad i'm not alone anymore. last night some people came over to chill and we ended up all in my room watching videos of tiff signing when she was younger. SO FUNNY. me and her and sassy all fell asleep in my bed watching a BSB video. it was fun times. we're gonna make the 3rd bedroom our hangout room. we're trying to figure out a way to get the couch in there...but when we do we're gonna put that and the glass tables...and the tv and stereo all in there. so we can chilll in there.
classes are going well. the british lit one is still kinda confusing but i think if i try hard i can do it. i didn't drop.
so i wanted to go to the flag football game this weekend but when i got all the way out to OP i called someone only to find out that it was cancelled. great. and i heard gas is going up to 3.25 on monday because of this hurricane. damn. that's a lot of money. for gas anyway.
we're trying to have a labor day party on sunday. an all day thing, we're gonna cook out and stuff..it should be fun, if people come.
my mom came the past 5 days..it was good to see her. she pretty much completely furnished the condo. so now theres furniture and stuff and it looks like we live there. it sucks though because we are having water damage right now..and it requires like 5 big loud fans to dry it up. they have to be running for 3 days straight. i hope they can go soon. they're annoying.
well i need to go buy some books and be productive today. i need to get the rest of the stuff out of my old apt. and i need to call my little for the week. i'm a horrible person not to have done so already. hopefully we can go with everyone else to the landing for dinner tonight. if you haven't noticed, our new girls are BEAUTIFUL and AMAZING. you should get to know them!!

YOU DON'T MEAN ANYTHING TO ME.

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 17:22:51 GMT

tell me, does it feel good to be like you?
and tell me, why should i waste my time with you?
cause baby you always bring me down.
i'm sick of being pushed around.
i'm not gonna change, you can't make me...

you don't mean anything to me
you're what i never wanna be.

back to school...

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 18:02:38 GMT

so i'm sitting in the library waiting for omelette to get out of class. i thought my first class was at 1:40..but that is tomorrow's schedule. so indeed i missed my 12pm class today. great. hope i can still take that class. it would be swell. so what else. spirit week was last week. an awful lot of kd-ness. it was fun to talk to the sisters that i don't talk to all that often. i do know that i'll be singing kd songs in my sleep for the next 2 weeks. this week is rush. i'm a little nervous. i'm not as nervous as before but i'm just stuck getting into a convo with some girl i have nothing in common with. that happened a couple times last year. it's scary. but they joined KD so i suppose it wasn't all bad.
so due to spirit week, i had to miss work. and no one covered my shifts. so therefore, i am left off the schedule for this week. i'm not particularly upset about this. i mean it sucks cause i need the money, but i was thinking of quitting anyway. my hours suck and this week is super busy for me anyways. my mommy is coming! and without work i'll be able to spend more time with her. it just stinks because i probably won't be able to use this place as a reference if i just leave. oh well. it's not like i was working with erik anyways.. : )
i haven't been able to hang out with erik lately unfortunately. his phone is being shitty so i haven't gotten a hold of him. poo. but this past weekend was awesome. thursday night was a party at angie's. i just had an amazing time. i met some new people and caught up with the ones that just came back for school. then friday i just went over to joe's for a while, they were having a little get together, but i didn't stay long cause i was super tired. i needed to get up early for spirit week anyway. so saturday i spent all day with KD and then that night was the sigma chi thing at sohos. so i went and got danielle and hildy and we went out there. FUN. finally i get the happiness i deserve...which leads me to my next point.

josh...so we're over. i know what you're all thinking, yeah sure it happens a lot. NO. it's really over. i've heard stuff that he's said about me and i've reached my breaking point. i know it's about time, but i finally can't put up with his bullshit anymore. and now that we're over this time, i'm MORE than relieved. i haven't thought about him much and when i have, it's me realizing that it was pointless to begin with and there are much better things available. (ie:erik) so i've just been going out and having an amazing time being single. i plan on being single for a while. i can't trust people anymore.
so anyway, last night i went with karina and leah and andrea to see 4 brothers. gooood movie, yall should see it if you haven't already. it's not even my kind of movie. action and fighting and whatnot. but i liked it. marky mark is sooooo hot.

well i'm gonna run. i'm in the library and have no internet at the condo yet. so more updates later...

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 14:32:20 GMT

so i have an update, for all of my loyal livejournal followers. ha. josh called me at like 1:30 yesterday and he was like, do you still want to go to the concert tonight? and i was like, yeah do you? and he told me he didn't care..so i was like..well i invited angie to go with me..but i would rather go with you since i did buy this for YOU. and he was like ok i'll try to get off work early and i'll get directions and everything. ok. but then i found myself in a predicament. i told 2 people i would take them. so i decided, i am going to bring angie. josh doesn't even care if he goes or not. so we were out to dinner at like 5:30 and he called and was like where are you? and i'm all...out to dinner with angie. he's all, isn't the concert at 7? and i say, yeah about that...i just decided to take angie, you didn't sound like you really wanted to go all that much. i tried to do something special for you and you didn't even thank me or anything. so i'm just taking her. and he was like, well you were all mad the other night and i didn't think you wanted to go. so i asked him if we could hang out after i got back from the show because i needed to talk to him about some things. and i asked him to please not get too drunk cause i really needed to talk. so me and angie had a lot of fun! we saw erik there. he is so hot. i'm glad my friends think so too..usually they think i have weird taste in boys. so we talked for a while. and went our separate ways.
we left the show a little after 10. everyone was going to ocean club. so we went to angie's place and started drinking with joel and zack and gus. then murphy lee and his friend came over and we all walked to the club. i had an absolute blast. josh never called back. i called him like 3 times. i'm so glad he didn't though. i had too much fun to even care. so ha. we left the club at like 2:30 or something and i crashed at angies. and we all passed out happily ever after : )

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 21:30:45 GMT

so. i guess not a whole lot is going on. i'm kinda bored for once at 5 pm. my work hours changed this week, so instead of working 2-10 everyday i work 8am-11am. it sucks cause i have to get up early but its only a 3 hour shift and i have all day to do whatever i want, include take a nap. i mean, once school starts i won't have that kind of time. but when school starts i'll be going to bed at a decent hour. i'm gonna cut down on drinking/partying hardcore. i'm gonna try and limit it to weekends. it's getting old. it might be more fun though once ALL my friends are here and there are new pledges and whatnot. so we'll see.

i'm trying to figure out why everytime i try to do something nice for someone it comes back to bite me in the butt. so monday was josh's 21st. i'm trying to give him a little leeway for being an asshole since the big 2-1 can be really exciting and he's prolly just taking advantage of it. i understand. but it's getting to me. last night i went over to his place..there was supposed to be a party but it was only me, scotty, his gf, joe, jenny, kyle and josh. i was pretty tired and kind of irritated to begin with. so i was just chillin, drinking minimally. and josh didn't really talk to me at all the whole time i was there. so after a while i told him i was going to leave, so i threw his bday present on his bed (the OAR tix) and he walked me out. and we were standing there and he was all over me, hugging me and whatnot being all cute. and then we heard a door open and he literally jumped off me. what the hell. do i have cooties? maybe, but that hurt my feelings SO bad. and then no one ended up walking out the door, so he tried to hug me again and i just pushed him off. i was like, don't touch me..have fun with your birthday present with scotty, he wanted to go...don't bother calling. and i left. he listened, didn't call. nor did he call today to thank me for the present and the nice card i wrote. he had the entire day off too. whatever. i need to learn how not to do nice things for people. (either way, the only way he's going is with me, cause i didn't give him the actual tickets. i got the tickets online and you need to bring the entire paper to get in...but the whole paper wouldn't fit in the card so i just gave him the ticket part..i wonder how this will turn out)

so i got the keys today for the condo. i just went in and looked around. the only thing i dont like about it are the doors. some of them just open in the weirdest ways. my bathroom door opens in to the left, but the light switch is on the left wall. which makes absolutely no sense. i suppose i'll just have to get a nightlight for the bathroom. i can't wait to move in, but i can't fully do that until my mom gets here, to buy me furniture. i can't wait to live there.

well i need to keep myself busy, so i'm going out to dinner with tiffany. i don't have a lot of money but i don't care. cause i don't wanna sit here by myself and think any more than i already have.

UGH

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 14:51:36 GMT

i don't know whats wrong with me. i had like a month of floating on cloud nine and now i feel like shit. sunday when i got back from st. pete (which was UNBELIEVABLE by the way) he said we were gonna hang out. i got back at 6:30. and i didn't see him at ALL that night. he was with his friend the whole time. the same one he hung out with the previous 3 days. and last night he was being a dick cause we drank. i thought it would be fun since it was just the 2 of us. but it was not fun. i dont know why those 2 incidents are making such a big deal. but i'm a wreck. i couldn't get through an hour at work yesterday without tears welling up in my eyes at the thought of him. maybe it's cause i'm on my period. GOD i hope so. but i just feel so bleh. he used to stay here in the mornings when i wanted him to but he left just now no matter what i said. i'm so pissed. he's like, 'i'll see you later' and i'm like, 'no you won't' and he walked out the door. ooooooh no he just didn't. i just want things to get better before his birthday cause his present will be a 75 dollar waste if they don't. he's gonna be the death of me i swear.

things are looking up

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 15:31:10 GMT

it's been a while for the ol' live journal. i can definitely say things are getting better. i can't really recap what happened in the last like month that i haven't updated, but i can try.

*so i went home for a few days. that was nice. it was really good to see my mom and my brother. i missed them terribly. my mom looks so good, she is doing much better than she was before. me and her went into the city one day to go shopping and it was like a day of bonding and money spending. it was awesome. bought some new clothes, we both got new sunglasses, and we ate dinner in little italy. i love spending time with her cause she is awesome. bridget was in town that weekend so we brought her back to school on our way. later that week i took a bus back to the city to visit bridget at school. when i got there she was still at work and wouldn't get off for another hour and a half or so, so i walked there from the bus station. she works at a really futuristic looking mall. i found her store and dropped off my suitcase so i didn't have to look like a moron wheeling it around the mall. i went into borders until she got off..i read cosmo and got tips..haha. so when she got off we left, we went to a really cheap but tasty mexican place near her school and made fun of the spanish language. cause we are smart like that. so we hurry back to her dorm and get ready to go to connecticut to see our boys. i was soooo excited. the train ride was actually fun. we sang songs and probably pissed a lot of people off. but it's fun doing that! so we get there and pablo is there waiting for us. we had to get jona at his work at the pizza place and we went back to pablo's house. we ate some pizza, watched some tv, went on a beer run, drank some, played a semi interesting game of "never have i ever" (which could have been funnier!!) and pretty much crashed. all in all i had a good night with them. this time it was kind of weird..i'm not sure why but me and bridget didn't know what to think about that visit. i know that i think jona looks DAMN fine with a shaved head. now, everyone who knows me knows that i don't believe in haircuts on boys, but this is like the one exception. anyways. so we get back to the city the next afternoon after we eat lunch with the boys. and we were exhausted so we take a nap. we got up at like 8:30 to go find dinner. we went to a spanish restaurant and sat outside. it was really good. we had a lot of spanish experiences that weekend. after dinner we walked to union square and people watched and ate ice cream. it was fun times. we went to a bar by FIT for a drink before we went back to the dorm and slept. next day i went home, and the rest of my time there was nice. i saw amanda for a while and got to spend more time with my mom..and my bro and his friends..ha.

*so 3 new guys got hired at my work. they're all black and one of them is freakin hilarious. you don't even know. everything that guy says just makes me hysterical. he teaches swim lessons now so thats weight off my shoulders. it's just entertaining to watch him. work is really fun now. every night i work with someone cool. i mean i'm not all anxious to get to work or anything but i don't dread it ever. i like it that way.

*i don't want everyone to take this the wrong way, but me and josh are talking again. there was like a 3 week period where we didn't see each other and we didn't talk. that made me crazy. when i broke up with him it didn't mean i wanted nothing to do with him. i still like him and want to be good friends with him so i was a little upset that we weren't talking. but this past monday i went to TBJ's to get my earrings and sunglasses and he was walking out. i was scared but he was cool and said that i should stay because they were having people over. i felt awkward cause no one that lives there actually invited me, but i stayed for a while. we got to talk and ever since then i've felt better. like everyone wanted me to break up with him because he didn't treat me right and whatnot. and i didn't break up with him because everyone wanted me to. but i was the only one who wasn't happy with my decision. when i'm not talking to him i'm not happy. now that i am again, i'm in a much better mood. we talk every day now and i like it this way. apparently he doesn't know if he wants to be in a relationship but it doesn't really matter. i would love to date him again but i love the way things are right now.

well i guess thats it, i have to go to work now anyways.

in the words of allen: it ain't easy bein a playa, holla atcha boy.